I ran away. Ran away in fear. Fear of betrayal. Fear of being alone. Not many know about the story. But there's still people who know it. I was hurt. Heartbroken.


Definitely not caused by my SO. He wouldn't bear to do that.

I was hurt during my previous job. Hurt so badly that I could stand up even until now.
One of my friends said that it's a process in life.
Another questioned me is there such a friend?

Both are trying to console me. Trying to pull me together again.

Story is too simple that I don't expect it to happen to me.
It was a good thing for me to leave that position at least before I go mad.

The environment - too quiet to the extent nobody talks. Nobody accompany me to lunch. My so-call friend promised me to accompany me but in the end, she did. Not once. Excuses everytime. No colleague for lunch. Need to stagger the lunch hours. No friend. All are executives. Who wants to befriend a junior me. Nobody laughs with me.




I am totally alone. It was like chang e on the moon alone. At least she has a rabbit with her. I ony have SO on the phone with me during lunch.


Thanks to those who stood by me, encouraging me, comforting me all this while. I appreciate that.
At least, I can know who are the real buddies and who are not.




I will try harder to overcome my fear. http://www.tharpa.com/background/dealing-with-fear.htm
reading this and hoping it will help.

I just need time to overcome it. Isn't it?

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I ran away. Ran away in fear. Fear of betrayal. Fear of being alone. Not many know about the story. But there's still people who know it. I was hurt. Heartbroken.


Definitely not caused by my SO. He wouldn't bear to do that.

I was hurt during my previous job. Hurt so badly that I could stand up even until now.
One of my friends said that it's a process in life.
Another questioned me is there such a friend?

Both are trying to console me. Trying to pull me together again.

Story is too simple that I don't expect it to happen to me.
It was a good thing for me to leave that position at least before I go mad.

The environment - too quiet to the extent nobody talks. Nobody accompany me to lunch. My so-call friend promised me to accompany me but in the end, she did. Not once. Excuses everytime. No colleague for lunch. Need to stagger the lunch hours. No friend. All are executives. Who wants to befriend a junior me. Nobody laughs with me.




I am totally alone. It was like chang e on the moon alone. At least she has a rabbit with her. I ony have SO on the phone with me during lunch.


Thanks to those who stood by me, encouraging me, comforting me all this while. I appreciate that.
At least, I can know who are the real buddies and who are not.




I will try harder to overcome my fear. http://www.tharpa.com/background/dealing-with-fear.htm
reading this and hoping it will help.

I just need time to overcome it. Isn't it?

Labels: All my nonsense

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